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I'm not sure how to explain this as I'm not great with words as some of you may know, but here goes:

I just feel that I'm sick of trying to fight these ongoing battles in my head, I feel like I have found myself increasingly thinking about how much easier it would be for me to just crawl away into a corner and die.
I cry myself to sleep at night and wish and pray that I just wont waken up in the morning.
I know I have an amazing group of friends and at the moment they are the only people keeping me going. That said I still feel that things would be easier for everyone if I just wasnt here anymore.
I feel that cutting myself just isnt giving me that same feeling anymore, it just seems like its not enough for me anymore, hence why I think I should just dissappear.
Sometimes I can feel myself getting increasingly hyper and then at other times I feel really low and suicidal. I just dont know what to do for the best.

I know this has come out a bit jumbled and muddled, but this is just how my head is, I feel like sometimes I can totally think straight and stuff then the next time my head feels like its going to burst.

Thank you for anyone who reads this x