Thanks for the replies.
I have counselling but it's very non direct and she doesn't invite me to talk about anything. Naturally I don't want to talk about being raped and abused because it's not all that happy and seems unproductive when I feel I understand it mostly already. It's a lot easier to talk about 'happy' stuff.
I'm normally completely anti medication but this is so traumatising and frustrating and it feels physical. I completely understand it's illogical to be touched/looked at/whatever and be terrified that that will result in abuse but I still can't helping feeling it all over me. All of my flashbacks are sensory rather than visual so it feels like it's in my body rather than mind.
How do you find a therapist who can deal with this stuff competently? I've meet a lot of therapists and they mostly seem passive and encourage me to indulge in depressive thoughts.
So you think flashbacks are a process rather than being stuck? And that they will eventually resolve themselves?
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