I feel like I am being judged.
I feel like my thoughts and feelings are being completely dissmissed by people IRL.
I feel like because I do not show how hard it is for me that people think I can handle stuff.
I feel like Im pushing everyone away, even though Im trying to reach out and get help.
I keep being told that Im reacting to uncomfortable positions well, but really?? I really don't see that. Freaking out if i get touched even accidentaly is awful.
I've been here before. I know how to react, and I know how to control situations, Its like second nature to me now - I've been doing it most of my life. Its just so hard. And then being told I NEED to speak to someone. I tried and it took a lot of effort for me to tell her about stuff that made me uncomfortable and she just dismissed it all or it felt like she did.
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