[DontLookUp]

I was just wondering if its normal to always think about SH. cause i actually cant seem to stop thinking about it, especially every time i see a pair of scissors, i cant help but looking at the blades.

And also sometimes if i manage to fight one big urge, then it just comes back later on in the day and this time i cant fight it. And if i manage to fight it a second time then i will just get another urge even later.

and sometimes the whole day i sort of have an urge to just do it, not like a 15 minute one, but a small continuous one. I was just wondering if it was normal?

I dont know i'm such a loser, i dont know whats wrong with me.
I'm really trying to stop, but i cant manage more then one day without it.
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