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i dont know if this is the right thing to post here. im sorry if it isnt. im new here.

why should i bother. everybody in life just knocks me down no matter what happens. i feel like i can trust nobody. nobody at all. im all alone. i feel numb, lonely, empty, sad, scarred, hurt, lost, and done. i dont know how to deal with this. i have been cutting, scratching, biting, and countless other things for a while. and its getting impossible to hide. and i cant stop. ive tried. nothing works. and i feel like its the only thing keeping me going. im only 16. just turned 16 actually. my mom is emotionally and mentally and occasionally physically abusive. i hate myself. i hate who i am and what i look like. i cant look in the mirror. i dont eat. i cant take it. i have nobody to talk too. im all alone. and i dont know what to do. i need a reason to live. or to at least keep trying. im scared. and worried. and i cant think of anything right now except ending it all. help. please. i dont know what to do.