It's a very difficult place to be, when things are so painful that it is too hard to examine them and deal with them, but so painful that not examining them and dealing with them enforces the pain. You're doing incredibly well and being so strong to keep going and I admire you for that. It's hard to keep a balance between your mental health and school work at this time of year. Hopefully you have a holiday soon for Easter and you will be able to take a step back from it all and have a break. In the mean time, perhaps you need to just acknowledge the pain that you/ others are feelings and reassure them that you will work with those issues, just not yet. It's important that the others realise that you are not trying to ignore what they are going through, just that you are not ready to deal with it yet. Hopefully they will understand. After all, they came into being to protect you from things that you weren't ready to deal with. In the mean time, please take care, and I hope that things get better for you emotionally, mentally, and romantically.
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