Thats a good idea Sarah. Problem here is the crisis team operate between 9am and 11pm, outwith this time you are meant to phone breathign space or nhs 24. Pyschs in hosp asked me why I didnt do this alst week, I was like it was after 2 when I needed to talk to someone, when crisis team and breathing space are finished and she was like what about the samartians, and im like I phoned them once and never will again - so what about nhs 24, I said last time I phoned them they tried to get an ambulance out to the house, so again no....
My CPN better be about tomoz, I think I will crack if I cant speak to her tomoz, even if its just on the phone for 5 mins, surely I can get that much, considering she was ill when I was meant to see her last Tuesday, I feel so pathetic but I really need her right now, my pysch doesnt care, all he does is see me every 3 months and talk to me about football, hosp oyschs did that too, she was like asking me about footy, only think I talk postively about and even that is ***** at the moment, even though we are in a cup final in a few weeks, first proper cup final since I was 1, so itss so important to me, I sooo hope we win but you know, I am so exicted about that as an individual event but i couldn't care less about anything else.......
I've just cut annd it has made me feel a bit better temporarily,I dont have nothing to patch the cut up with besides plasters which wont do any good, but i really dont care anymore to be honest
Why spend all day fukking writing an essay, and when I am done I dont care no fukkin more, I dnt dukkin care you know and fuk fuk fuk it, my cpn whats she going to say, nothing she can say - but i need her.
Sorry. I have just fukkin had it now.
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