[Nine]

Wow, you've been amazing so far.

Maybe instead of aiming for nothing you should aim greatly reducing your cutting? It would be amazing if you could do it, but as we both know it's incredibly difficult, and it won't help if it ends up making you feel like a failure.

I don't think you should give up on your idea completely though. I have two possible suggestions if full out stopping is too difficult but you want to keep it up.

A) Make a smaller promise. For instance you could promise to always try at least one distraction before cutting, or that you will wait a certain amount of time before letting yourself give in. You could also limit a part of your body that is either dangerous or inconvenient due to hiding scars. You could try to limit the severity of any SI by limiting the tools you use. Or you could promise that any cuts will be properly taken care of.

B) I love this theory because it makes slip ups easier, but why not try the stone trick? You take pebbles or marbles or something similar, and every day you go without cutting (or every time you resist an urge) you put a stone in the bowl. Every day you cut (or every time, which solves the "already did it today" problem) you take one stone out. I think this is a great strategy because it shows overall progress in a different way than counting streaks, where slip ups are emphasized greatly. You could aim for a certain number of stones in the bowl by Easter and if you ended up with more it would be great.

Again I'm not trying to say that you should give up trying to stop all together, and I think it would feel great to go the entire period without cutting. But if that goal is going to stress you out I think you should try a different goal instead of giving up completely, since you've got a great idea.