[NicolaRose]

I've gone just over a week without self harming now, it has been really really hard at times, but I want to stop. I'm not quite sure how I have made it so far, seems strange that my head and ability to cope with things seems worse but that I haven't cut. The support on here has helped alot, so thanks everyone. I think also, posting when I have urges or get stressed helps a bit too because it is releasing some of it and I can let my emotions out.

I want to continue fighting this.

One thing that is really giving me some motivation is that I will be going on holiday at Easter, and the weather will also be getting warmer. .... I want to be able to wear t-shirts, tops and skirts or something, without having any nasty cuts or scars showing. My arm is scared, but they aren't too bad, my legs have scars all down them :( and still healing and fading from previous inguries. I'm hoping that it will all fade a bit more if nothing is added and hopefully not be noticable.

So I'm going to try and not SI, I am going to try and reminding myself that I would be undoing my work and will be unhappy if I do feel really tempted.

I'm going to try really hard( will hopefully get done help from counselling or doctors by then as well) ....or at least try not let and possible slip ups be anywhere obvious or deep.


Don't know if that kind of idea would be motivational to others?? If you want to try to aim for summer where you can try to be less coveted up, or if there is something special coming up and you would like to wear something nice or not be hiding cuts