Thank you for your words of encouragement domino_effect, it means a lot *hugs back* the thing is, I just want to test the waters with her before I disclose important stuff. I've been seeing her for a while now and she's been brilliant for everything else, I'm just scared about discussing this, because, well, what if she thinks I'm as disgusting as I feel? :( I need to see how she reacts to something unimportant before I even think about telling her anything else. I'm just so scared about next Wednesday that I can't think about anything else. It's as if it keeps going through my head all the different ways of telling her, yet I never decide how and just get upset. It really sucks :(
You seem really low atm domino_effect *hugs* so I'm really glad that you're managing to write here. You're definitely not on your own in all this, and we'll all be here to listen. I'm sorry you've always seemed to struggle where help is concerned, but it doesn't mean you have to carry on like that. It's good that you see your gp regularly, but do you fill her in about how you feel? Maybe it's worth telling her you need someone to try and talk to about things. She might be able to refer you to someone else. It's not silly at all that you're struggling with women, I'm not surprised at all considering. But you just need to remember that theyre not all the same. Hugging your mom could be a good place to start. Just remind yourself that she's safe and it's ok to hug her. Keep your chin up hun, it'll all be ok. *hugs*
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