I was physically and emotionally abused by my mom...and maybe sexually but I still have a hard time admitting or realizing that it might be sexual abuse. She did things like...when I was 8 she made me drink her breast milk from her breast and then she laughed at me and said I was sick for doing it...when she gave me no other choice. And a couple times she was drunk and she tried to make out with me repeatedly. It makes me feel sick to think about.
She always called me a bitch, and other things, and threatened to abandon me. She hit me and/or made fun of me when I cried or got upset about anything.
I am so angry at her for ruining my life, but at the same time I can't show her that. I feel like I'm the mother and I have to take care of her and protect her. That makes me sick.
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