I think it's ok to not know what you want from life when you're 21. You're still young, and still have plenty of time to decide what you want to do.
The lady you want to talk to, I think you should try talking to her. Even if she recommends you go to your GP or a counsellor, you won't be forced to, although I'm wondering why it is you're reluctant to see somebody like a psychologist? (They can be helpful, and therapy isn't as scary as you think!).
As for worrying here, I'm sure she (and many, many other people) would be far more worried if you chose to OD/SH instead of talking to somebody. Plus, she may be able to offer you some good advice.
There's nothing wrong with taking a class off if you need to, perhaps the lady you want to talk to could explain to your tutor that you need a bit of a break right now, but that you're ok and don't need emailing or being checked up on.
Also, if what you're doing at college isn't what you want to carry on doing in future, I'm sure you parents would understand if you wanted to stop and look for something else, which I'm sure would be more beneficial to you, and those who care about you, than trying to run away from it all.
What your friend said sounds a bit insensitive, but I think maybe it's her way of telling you she's concerned and would prefer you to stop? People don't always say the right thing when they're worried or scared about something.
A few things in your post show you have people who care about you, asking for help isn't a bad thing. It's good you talked to your friend I think, even if you didn't get the reply you needed. Try talking to the lady at college, it could help =]
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