It must be hard watching them all succeed in stopping while you're still struggling but maybe you can talk to your friends. Even if you can't go to a therapist maybe your friends can provide support and sort of coach you along as you try to stop. Can you try and sit down and explain to your mom how bad you're feeling and that the cutting is serious? I don't know, maybe the actualy injuries aren't that bad so she shrugs it off- but maybe you can explain that it isn't the cutting itself that's dangerous but the emotions and feelings that cause it. If you want to try and stop- maybe can you wear a rubberband around your wrist and snap it lightly when you feel like cutting (not hard enough to leave a welt though)- that way you get a small amount of pain but its less harmful than cutting. Try taking baby steps and maybe you'll find you're feeling better eventually. :) I hope things start to look up for you- if you ever want to talk I'm happy to listen. Feel free to PM me.
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