I remember my worst and most scary time, left me stunned for a few days, which I suppose was an advantage at the time as it kept me clean for about a week. And when I slipped and started again, I began small, eventually I learnt to deal with the larger cuts. It's not good but a lot safer. I know your feelings about decisions and pressure I'm facing similar ones at the moment, sometimes it's better to find someone you trust or can trust that's non-biased in the situation to help assist you in your decision. If I was you, I would take it easy for a week if you can and try to keep your mind off it. Get lots of sleep and once your calmer and more clear minded, think through the situation again, you may find it easier and less scary. If not, talk to someone, I know just how hard that can be, but as long as you know they're trustworthy it's worth a shot.
Wish you all the best, Jack.
