ok so i saw the doctor on monday and i had cut that morning and ended up getting stitches it was rather scary as it wouldnt stop bleeding for ages and stuff and i didnt realise how bad that i had done it and i dunno it just doesnt seem like i can control myself from doing it or doing it badly
. i hadnt cut from monday until yesterday night and morning and i ended up needing stitches again
twice in one week, but i didnt mean to do it bad, it was worse this time than monday and the had to put a high presure bandage on it and keep it elevated as it wouldnt stop bleeding
i was very scared and i still am i suppose i still got urges to cut again but i dont wanna b needing stitches again or anything. anyway it was the same nurse that i saw yesterday as well as monday and she rang the crisis team as i have been to that walk in centre quite a few times in the past month. the deliberate self harm team (part of the crisis team) are going to ring me on monday and im very scared. im seeing my counsellor at uni on monday too so i will try and mention this too her aswell
i dont no what they are going to ask or what they are going to say. i dunno i ccould use a bit of support atm and has anyone talked to the deliberate self harm team before????