it isn't really the same but i lost my best friend almost a year ago. She was the most important person in my life, we just understood each other. Basically she chose anorexia over me. I tried to help her but she hated talking about it, she just wanted to pretend it wasnt there when in reality she was killing herself. If i just asked how things were, a question where she could answer ok or not so good, she'd flip at me. Eventually we fell apart, i tried to save it but she wasnt the same person anymore, and i dont think she ever will be. i cried myself to sleep for such a long time. Not only had i lost her but she was getting worse and i had no right to intervene, she had noone to open up to, not that she would have any way. A few months later i found my current best friend. She quite literally saved my life. She is incredible, we actually talk about things worrying us and she is always there for me and i for her. I know nothing will be like what i had before but this is different and better for me. You will find another best friend, someone better suited for you and who won't ditch you for no good reason. You arent the one that ****ed up. these things cant last forever, nothing will be like what you and MJ had but who knows, you could find something better?
Take care x
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