How old are you? 39
Are you male or female? Female
What is the reason you started self harming? [In my late 20s] I hated myself and wanted to punish myself for 'being bad' - how my father and the bullies had made me feel, because I struggled with my emotions and low self esteem, and believed I was a failure. [NB Hitting and scratching, never cutting, and mainly hitting/bruising.] I'd never heard of self harming before I started. It was kind of 'natural'.
Does self harm help you feel in control of your life?It has at times helped me feel in control of the pain, where it stops and starts. Unlike in my past, when there was no escape from abuse.
Does anyone know that you self harm? Yes.
If so, did you tell them willingly or did they find out? Willingly.
What is the reason you don’t/didn’t tell anyone?
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