have since spoken to her on facebook and she was very mean to me, I am afraid when I meet a new person and I'm unsure of what to say and how to stand, even sometimes how to laugh at a joke and I end up beating myself up over stupid stuff like "did I laugh too loud" or " will she call me back" "did she think I'm a moron" and it drives me so crazy I don't want to talk to anyone but I'm starving for someone to love and appreciate me for just being me. I'm a diverse person with a wide variety of hobbies and I think someone would like that. I'm ramblling and I know it...
Overall, I'm fine if my husbands around or if I'm with my family but when they have to go to work I get urges so strong I have to do something like a compulsive something to get my mind off of them and I'm running out of ideas very fast.
She told me that "her life is quiet now and she's sorry if I don't likenit but I'll have to deal" this isnt fIr everyone else I know has a best friend with cute pics all over their facebook and I'm kinda jealous.
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