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thanks everyone for the hugs! xx

sunshine - thanks so much for listening, it helps x

untitled18 - she's added so many people from my bebo - i checked her's today and she's got even more of my friend's on it. she's dating a boy who she MET OVER MY BEBO. to try to tell kirsten anything, would never work - she'd just shut me out of her life if i done that - she doesn't like anyone telling her the truth. i'm scared to meet her. i've only met her once which was 6 years ago. she lives in aberdeen it would cost me £100 to visit her just for the ticket. i dont want her to come down here - my dad wouldn't let her stay at my house + i wouldn't want her to stay at my mums house. if we met we'd need to live with each other for a few days - i just don't think i wanna do that! any advice is great! thank you so much for yours. x

kirsty345 - i never go anywhere alone! i'd be so scared. i cry myself to sleep alot. i just hate everything right now. i stay in bed for ages + sometimes all day. i never get dressed + i never go out. thanks it's great to know that i'm not the only one. no i don't know who in the world could help me about my anxiety/panic attacks + stuff. i've to go see a councillor but it's really about rape :/ + abuse. it's called CARA - Centre for Action on Rape and Abuse. i wanted a normal councillor to help me with thing's, but we'll see how it goes x