Sorry I've been away for a few days. I'm having a terrible time right now - so terrible that I have (mostly) forgotten about what I look like. I have an appointment tomorrow afternoon to take my two pet rats in to be euthanized. I may just leave the house without any makeup because I know it will be all runny by the end of things anyway. I've been crying all day off and on...
Anyway, back to the thread. I wanted to comment on Ennui's question. I do not think I have trouble "identifying" myself. Like, if I look in a mirror, no matter what I see I will always know that it is ME. However, the way I seem to function is that if I am away from a mirror for a while, I get this picture in my mind of what I think I look like. And if I can go long enough without seeing a mirror, I can sometimes convince myself that i'm not all that bad-looking. I imagine my features into perfection in my mind and as long as I dont see a mirror, I follow the saying, "ignorance is bliss."
When I do inevitably run across a mirror, it's always, "Oh yeah. I don't look like that. I look like THIS. I *am* ugly..."
I remember that I looked that way this morning when I checked the mirror, but only after a second of thinking back. I always know that it is still me and that is how I look. But I try to pretend otherwise during the time when I am without a mirror. If there were no mirrors in the world I could just pretend to my heart's content and live a perfectly happy normal life. But, unfortunately, that's not the case. And if it were, I think that would probably develop into some weird form of psychosis... -lol-
I hope that made sense. I haven't been able to think straight today what with the rats and all...
