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milkybar · 22-01-2010, 11:12 PM

I rarely post one here, I mainly read other peoples advice and hope I'll somehow relate. I often don't like talking about or even admitting that I SI.
But this time, I feel like I need some advice of my own.
One of my close friends has found out about my SI and despite the fact i've lied to her and said I'm fine , I think she knows I'm not.
It's been a problem for the last three years, and she is the first person to ever accidently find out.
I think it has become so routine to me that I couldn't understand why she was so worried about it all.
But then the last week has become so intense that I find myself thinking about suicide alot, which terrifies me.
I've realised I probably do need help.
She's threatened to contact my parents unless I go see my GP with her.

I don't want to lose her and I hate to see her worry about me :/
But the thing is, I don't think I could do it. Where would I even begin to explain everything?

22-01-2010, 11:12 PM	#1
milkybar is new~ Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: london. I am currently:	GP advice I rarely post one here, I mainly read other peoples advice and hope I'll somehow relate. I often don't like talking about or even admitting that I SI. But this time, I feel like I need some advice of my own. One of my close friends has found out about my SI and despite the fact i've lied to her and said I'm fine , I think she knows I'm not. It's been a problem for the last three years, and she is the first person to ever accidently find out. I think it has become so routine to me that I couldn't understand why she was so worried about it all. But then the last week has become so intense that I find myself thinking about suicide alot, which terrifies me. I've realised I probably do need help. She's threatened to contact my parents unless I go see my GP with her. I don't want to lose her and I hate to see her worry about me :/ But the thing is, I don't think I could do it. Where would I even begin to explain everything?