... And using the help available to you to the best of your ability.
Thanks Mari.
The below is a reply to the above, and also elements of what others have said in posts above that. Sorry I'm not replying individually at this stage.
And, you see, the thing is, even if there is an element of needing care and attention, it is rooted in deep emotional neglects and lack of proper attention during all my growing up years. It's not something that is helpful to have pitied or shamed.
It is perhaps 'easy' for that ache to get translated by the vulnerable part of me into wanting hospital. I see how that is twisted.
And it is key that my father threatened prolonged psychiatric incarceration for me when I was very young. He projected his own 'poisons' into me, which added onto my own vulnerabilities.
But I, Katie, don't want to be hospitalised. In fact am deeply phobic about it. The rest of me is somewhat conflicted, and it's helpful for me to talk about it here and get perspective.
I think a lot of misunderstanding can come from confusing illness and vulnerability, emotional fragility?
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