I'm fighting urges to cut and I don't know why.
Everything was going really well. Nothing has changed, nothing has gone wrong to make me feel this way.
A huge part of me is saying "don't do it, you've not cut for a while and you're doing really well"
The other part of me is saying "Who cares, it doesn't matter whether you cut or not, no one is going to know. You've always been really good at hiding it and now you live alone you don't even need to hide it as much."
Why, h why do I feel like this. If I could understand what was making me feel like this I could do something about it. Talk it through maybe or at least understand and counteract my feelings in some way. I always try and rationalise things and I can't rationalise what I don't know and don't understand.
Arrragh.
Liz
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