[Cryptic.]

So, I saw her.
She's increasing my Zoloft by 25mg for this week, & then 50mg more for next week.
& by then, I'll be up to 100mg.
She said it should make the anxiety be instantly relieved.
But I don't think I've experienced that?
I told her my OCD has been getting worse, & she said it takes up to 3-4 weeks to act.

& she's faxed over to my GP another medication that's better than diazepam & can help for instant relief of my anxiety but to only use it when I need it & to try & not take it at the same time as the Zoloft.

& I got more tramadol too.
(for my pain)

& We talked about how suicidal I've been, & about the courses I could be doing online soon... & about staying strong & to stay strong with the Zoloft until she comes back.
(She's going away for 2 weeks.)

& she also said that OCD seems to be the more dominant mental illness in my life right now, so she said when that's more settled, we'll work on other stuff.

(I'm also going to be typing up a letter over the next 2 weeks for her, as a lot of things are distressing me quite severely right now, & OCD isn't the only dominant thing going on.)

&she praised me for eating & drinking my milk like she said last year when I saw her.
(We had a few months of not seeing her as, how she puts it, I "fired" her.)
&she said "so you don't completely ignore what I say then?"


I'm pretty exhausted right now, so I will add more about what happened when I feel more up to it... but that's mostly it I think...?
If I remember anything else, I'll post it.