maybe you want to do it to escape whats going on at the moment? Exams and thoughts about the future can and are challenging
i want to escape this pressure! i know it's not that bad, people put up with worse, and so on, but i'm finding it hard to cope with the expectations. i got a conditional offer from oxford, and EVERYONE irl is so pleased, so happy for me, but of course i need 3As and my first exam's on wednesday and the closer it gets the more i think, it's just not going to happen. i don't want to let everyone down, but the more i think about it, the more it makes me want to OD, which would just be the biggest let-down possible lol. i know logically it's not the end of the world if i don't go to ox, but i want to do my best. i revise and the stuff just isn't going in like it used to. i keep telling myself that if i get through this lot of exams i can have a go at an OD, but i'm too impatient. urgh, i shouldn't be thinking like this, should i?
any magic answers?
edit: thanks for the hugs and support