[tamobhuuta]

thank you both for your replies, and also everyone for the hugs. it means a lot to me.

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Is there anyone you can call if things get really bad with the overdose thoughts etc again before you next see your counsellor/care co-ordinator?Or anyone you can talk to about feeling so out of it etc?

i am free to call K during the day, and i have the out-of-hours number too. if i am at school and things get too much i might phone but at home there is too much chance of my being overheard. sometimes i talk to my tutor too. she is very kind to me, but i am aware that most things i would say she would need to pass on to keep me safe. i might also try intimating to my mum if things get harder, but i am still getting used to doing that and wouldn't be able to say if i was actually going to do something.

i am finding reasons not to hurt myself but the thoughts are very persistant :)