thanks for the replies. I'm super freaked out about this weekend... still trying to finish laundry so I can finish packing. I'm worried about the test tomorrow, and staying in the hotel in a city I hate tomorrow night, and having to be up at 3am the next day, and being in an unfamiliar place with unfamiliar people all on my own, and then seeing the dr's on saturday...
I still don't know what to tell them. The car ride tomorrow will be a good hour long at least, maybe two... and we HAVE to stop for lunch (another thing I'm stressed over). I'm being forced to eat, even tho I don't normally eat lunch anyway and I eat even less when I'm nervous. If I don't eat tho, this girl that's picking me up to take me there will get in trouble. Maybe during the couple hours we'll be spending together (it sounds like it'll be just the two of us, and I sort of hope it is), maybe I'll tell her about the cutting and how freaked out I am, and find out what she thinks I should do. She already knows about all the other stuff (well, not a lot... just little things like ADHD) that I'm "hiding" and on our way there I'm sure part of the discussion is going to be re-coaching me on what to say and what not to say...
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