Thanks, Lanny, for taking the time to post. *cuddles* I see a nutritionist and he's worried but I think I am going to "terminate" care with him as I am not doing what he wants me to do. I just can't. I'm not ready. I can't keep a ****ing food journal, because I don't want him to know what I eat or have to admit that I don't know how many calories were in whatever I just ate. :( Friends - including my husband - have noted that there doesn't seem to be a difference between when I see my N and when I don't... so... :-/ That's no good.
I do have a therapist and a NP that I see... therapist weekly, NP monthly, although I won't see them again til mid-January. >_< Am worried about how I am going to hold on until then... I'm so scared that I'm going to give in and purge... or binge... or both. I don't WANT to be a bulimic. *cries*
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