*hugs Becci & Kerry* Becci, glad you made the effort after all. :) Sounds yummilicious (om nom nom? :P). How are you feeling?
Kerry, I'm so sorry to hear about your friends. Abusers often - in fact, very often - present a false front to people they want to impress. That's how so many people get into relationships with them... they can seem oh so charming until you've gotten to know them well and are "stuck" in a relationship with them. I wish I could do more to help... is there any way that you can see a therapist or a social worker? because that might help, be able to talk to someone who can truly help you IRL. *more hugs*
I'm kind of blah. I have my iPod turned on shuffle and am trying my hardest to ignore the food that's all around. Carbs, carbs, carbs!!! I am not doing what my nutritionist wanted me to, either - keep a food diary. I am currently 2 days behind, which really isn't good. :( I feel like rubbish. It's going to take some work to get into the habit.
I have a cuppa in front of me... spiced apricot looseleaf tea. Mmmmm. Calorie-free too. :P My mum is having some as well - it's nice to have another tea drinker in the house. My husband drinks tea but only when it's before bed and no coffee is allowed (lol). I love coffee but have been avoiding it as it makes so so anxious. I'm on 4mg Klonopin/day and I'm STILL anxious. Stupid body. Stupid mind. Stupid me. :(
I'm kind of bummed out. My husband bought me this really cute sweatshirt that I love... it is pinkish red and has Snoopy on it, dancing and singing, and there's music notes all over (I love music and am a musician). The only problem is, it doesn't fit. It's a zip-up hoodie and the shoulders are a bit tight and it doesn't close 'round the middle. I feel so tubby!!!! *cries* It should be in the right size, too... but it's not. I feel like sh*t whenever I think about it... I'm so big and ugly it's nasty. :(
Anyway. Tea is yum and so is VitaminWater.
Am I stupid? :(
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