It was your face; your dark and angry face. Your stupid ugly beard and your gay toungue piercing. It was your broad shoulders and charming smile. It was your sweet talk and your painful grip. It was your control and your threats. And now it's your name. It rings in my ears and it flashes before my eyes. I thought I was imagining it, I thought I was taunting myself but then I saw it for real. 'CL is now friends with 'him''. I panic everytime I hear you are friends with any of them. What happens if you do something to them? Or was it just me? Your 'little sister', was I difference cause I was younger and did what I was told? Was it different cause you know I'd never tell? Was it just a phase?
I am sickened by what you did to me and the extent of how it effects me now. I don't want it to be true but it is, you broke me, maybe you made me stronger but you ruined me. You stole my childhood and my trust. You took from me the 2 things any human being deserves to have: safety and control. Safety and control. SAFETY and CONTROL.
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