I'm sorry to hear you're having such a difficult time, and i'm sorry you had to go through losing a sister, it must be difficult.
You sound like you're very angry indeed, but it's such a good thing that you are able to stop and see that you can't control your anger. With this said, I really think that you should seek some support and help. Have you ever had counselling/therapy concerning the loss of your sister? A good place to start would be the doctor. You could print this post off and show them it if you think you would find it difficult to talk. Or write down what's going?
I'm sure your parents have great concern for you, and are actually very scared and upset to see you so angry, and upset too? Talk to your parents, tell them how you feel. Show them this post if you have to. Tell them you are going to seek help for your anger and mood swings. That in itself would be a relief for them to here i'm sure.
If the police came over what would happen would all really depend. It would depend on what you're parents do. If you smash up all of your parents house for example the police can remove you if that's what your parents want. The best thing for you to do would be to seek help, and I think your Dr may be the best place. Do you have a school counsellor you could see?
Take care of yourself.
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