ever feel everyone knows something you dont? or that they are so sick of you that you become paranoid? or that you cant cut off limbs and still survive? or cut to the bone and not bleed? or that a demon is in you and that you have to slice open to let it out so you can see reality? or that if you do what you want to do, no one will understand? or they would be mad? or you would be locked away?
Or that you are smart enough to know the difference, dont do anything (trying not to be cryptic so states ___CUTTING YOURSELF) and feel like such a loser cause you dont know what or who to turn to or trust in life?
when i make a promise to someone else it became easy to say 1 more day... now, it is hard not to 'TOY' around one more hour.
drawing pictures of what to be?
writting out how it will be?
burning it away so there is no "evidence"
darn Rain,
Darn this is hard
shuts the **** up and leaves you alone.
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