As I keep saying to you hun, now is the time to take some of your own advice!!! Which is actually really good advice!!!
This is where your body i fighting this. Its called Fear, recognise it for what it is. There will be a lot of it.
For so long, yor depression has been home. Its been a safe place for you to hide. Its become a comfort for you, almost like a friend. You used to it being there all the time, shadowing everything you do. Chaning how you react to things.
Now that it is lifting, you being to see the world in colour again! To experince things to feel things. And its scary. Its like relearning everything. ITs like losing a part of you! But things will be so much better once you do lose it. Once you learn that things dont always have to be this hard. Life isnt meant to be this hard. Life is for living.
Its going to take time to get used to it again.But you will. And you will be happy. Sure material things you might have lost, but is that really how you mark how good a life you have been? No its not. You mark it by how good your friends are and how you feel. Anything that makes you happy is worth it. And you have made some great friends. (ahem hehe)
If you still want the material things then you can get them back in time. The differnce being this time, you will appreciate them more. You will be thankful for what you have got.
You wont always feel like this hun, once you stop fighting it an you learn to deal with it, you will remember what true happiness is.
Take care hun
You know where I am.
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