You know that I had a major freak out about getting better. Any change is scary, especially when it's something as monumental [for want of a better word] than getting your life back.
But what exactly did your psych say to you about this eh? One day at a time. If you're feeling particularly positive then a week maybe. That's all you need to focus on. Right now you ARE getting better but you ARE still ill. An 18 month long coma patient doesn't just sit up one day and go for a jog, does he? He'll stay in hospital for a while while he gets his bearings and gets used to the change.
You haven't lost everything sweetheart. God knows how many times I've had this conversation with you but you haven't. Sure, okay, the material things - but if you decide you want them again then there is a way to get them back. As for the friends, the real ones have stuck by you and I, for one, would much rather have a few close friends that I knew loved me for who I was, no matter what, than a wider spectrum of not so close friends. But as you get better you'll be able to socalise a bit more - again, in your own time, nobody's telling you to invite them all down to a pub tonight - and rebuild the friendships that may have been left on the slide for however long. And the ones worth having will forget all the **** and everything and just be glad you're a part of their lives again.
Talk to you later.
xxx
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