[MissRin]

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Dear T,
I could wish death upon you and that still wouldn't be enough for everything that you did. I wake up hysterical from nightmares about everything happening. I remember the bed and the room and me yelling at you No. No means ****ING NO. You controlled me. Made me believe what was happening happened to everyone else. Made me think it was "normal". You made me ruin relationships with my parents, my friends, everyone who came in contact with me. You Forced me to stay in the house and threatened me with things if I didn't do what you said. You made me lie. You made me steal. You made me degrade myself in front of you. I can't even look at myself the same way in the mirror anymore because of you. I have a hard time being able to focus when the thoughts come back to haunt me. All I can see is the replay of everything. I hate you. I really wonder if your mother knows what kind of monster she gave birth to. If your father or brothers knew. What would they say. I could have destroyed you financially. I could have put you away in jail for rape. I could have done so many things but all of them wouldn't be enough. You took my innocence. You broke me. You broke my spirit. I hide behind a mask now because of you. I will NEVER be the same because of what you ****ing did to me. I hate you. I hate you. I HATE YOU.

I can't write anymore. It hurts too much.