Hmm... I'm an embarassment to my family, I make them feel inadequate, etc.
I wonder why I try and look after myself. I wonder why I bother at all. I wonder why I haven't killed myself yet. I'm selfish and horrible and evil and putting my family through hell. I don't deserve to look after me. I bullshitted to the Samaritans. I don't deserve any help at all.
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