Heidi, is it strange that in the past I've wanted to be sectioned but not in hospital? Sounds funny I guess! But from my point of view (and I don't want to be sectioned or in hospital these days) I hate hospital. Hate it. But I've had so much experience in my life of feeling I had to take responsibility all the time, and so much experience of people not taking anything I said seriously, that being sectioned was always the ultimate "People hear me" thing. I knew if I was sectioned on a ward instead of voluntary, when the Controllers would try to bully me into running away, I'd have ammunition against Them: "Can't; I'm sectioned, gotta stay" kind of thing. That said, I value my freedom and know a section would be pretty bad for me.
Sorry to thread-hijack.
misstained, a lot of people on RYL want to be in hospital sometimes. I have in the past. Now thinking of hospital just reminds me of how terrible I felt when I was there, but some people do find it quite nurturing and safe.
Having read your first post more thoroughly, I wonder if there are any other ways that you could get the help you need without hurting yourself more. What sort of help are you getting, and what sort would you like?
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