I did tell my therapist.. which I think was a mistake really, as she just would not let it go all session. I don't really want to talk to her about it. It scares me, and right now I just want to forget about it.
Reporting it is out of the question. I have no evidence - he used a condom, and I had a shower straight after I got home. All my clothes have been through the wash by now. There are no witnessess, nothing to say that it happened. I don't bruise easily, which is usually a godsend, but it's not helpful right now.
Besides... I'm too much of a coward to do that.
(It's probably a different topic, but this therapist I'm seeing now.. it's through CAMHS, and I've already changed once cos my last one went on maternity leave, and I've been seeing this one for about a year now so there's not really any point in changing again now.)
I just feel so damn exhausted all the time.
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