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ok well, hi everyone. i'm new here and i made an account just to post in this thread because i also have the same problem. i'm female and i'm 13 yrs old. i get too attached to people, mainly teachers and most of the time they're females. i remember having this problem since when i was in nursery (5 yrs old), i liked my teacher so much, i want to be with her all the time, i like talking to her and i want her to always notice me so i make ways for her to notice me. but i didnt know i was obsessed with her since i was only a kid. i also had that problem when i moved to a new school when i was 6, i got obsessed with our teacher. and when i was in grade one i was also so obsessed with my english teacher. i sent her letters and stuff just for her to notice me. when i was in grade two, i got obsessed with my computer teacher. when i was in grade 3, i got obsessed with my english tcher. when i was in grade 4, i got obsessed with my computer tcher, but this was worse, i would follow her everywhere, i would always go out of the class to go to the computer laboratory just to look at the window and see her. i wanted to know every single detail about her life. i was obsessed with everything about her. i always wanted to impress her just so she would notice me. i wanted all her attention. and i hate it when other students get her attention. i wanted to be a really close friend of her. but when i was in grade 5 i started hating her when i felt like she doesnt like me anymore. i told my seatmate (who became a close friend of mine) about it and she thought i had a crush on our teacher. but it's not that. it's something else that i cant figure out what. when i was in grade 6 i got obsessed with my hekasi teacher, but he's a male. and now i'm in first year high school and im now studying in a new school, and i'm so obssessed with my MAPEH teacher.
it started during the 2nd week of classes. i wanted to know her more and i wanted her to notice me. i wanted to be a really good friend of her. and since i'm a very outspoken and outgoing person, everyone else in class knew about it. but at first my closest friend in class was the only person who knew it at first, but when i got closer to my classmates, i started telling them about it. well, not actually telling them about how i feel that i want to be friends with her, that i want to see her all the time, be with her all the time and stuff like that. but i would always talk about her nonstop, i would talk about how good she is. i felt like i was some kind of a stalker. some of my classmates even joked me about being a lesbian. i also once questioned if i'm a lesbian, but no, i'm straight. i'm even very girly.
i realized i've been this way to certain people in the past already. it doesnt really bother me that much now that i'm in first year high school bcos it's not as bad as it used to be when i was younger. because when i was younger, whoever it is that i'm obsessed with, she would always occupy my mind, i would always think about her and i also do imagine having a conversation with her. i talk about her all the time to the extent that i cant focus on doing something. everything reminds me of her. when i watch a movie, it reminds me of her and i would imagine the protagonist on the movie that it's her. and whatever it is that i'm doing, it always reminds me of her. is this a mental disorder?? my parents dont know this since i dont really tell them everything about me because i'm not that close to them because of some past family problems i had with them.
does anyone know what causes this?
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