I guess it depends on how long you've been doing it. Routine becomes everything. I know that certain meds make it more difficult to feel significant variations of mood but at the same time when stressors come along you are in a better position to cope.
I dunno if I ever went hypomanic on purpose but I know those are the times I am more productive...........so I probably don't pull the brakes when I should- i.e. yeah you actually feel alive.
But then you are on this roller coaster and the rest of the world is going so slowly and no one seems to understand where you are coming from.
Whereas, I do things now like wow you did your laundry or wow you washed the dishes or wow you had a bath (going through a real bad patch at the moment) so no life is what you think it is...........all this talk about meds and diet etc making you boring is either your illness or the world talking. Because I still remember what decisions I made when I was hypomanic and even though they weren't good ones- I still think I'd make the same ones again..................
Don't hurt yourself, care for yourself, cause no one else gives a hoot and being well is sometimes all you have.................monotony will bring familiarity and normality and routine..............which isn't always bad.
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