Originally Posted by
Pup
Suicide feelings and suicide ideas are common amongst mental health illnesses, this site is a place for those people to come to.
I understand that but many of the people they talk to may have as well. I feel i'm being misunderstood with this thread im not talking about people who say are in a desperate state every now and again or talking about wanting to end their life i can cope with that. What im saying is more sort of specifying people who consistantly tell me they're going to do so. Every single cconversation consists of that.. which could be say in a matter of hours or say a day in between which can become very draining and is unfair... in my opinion in the least.. i think thats taking it the extra mile when it comes to being considerate or simply wanting to talk. I myself have been guilty of it... but i dont come into chat specifically aim certain members and am going to tell them every time i log on im going to kill myself and then rub it in their faces as much as possible. I've wound up in tears from some of the treatment i've got... or triggered/ suicidal myself.
One example was i came on here a month or so ago in a desperate state and was trying to talk over my fears of ringing ambulance/ going to hospital... just so that i could calm down enough to save my own life. I even got pm'ed at that moment with the same info... i didnt have the time to block i was so shakey and a mess i didnt have the energy but it made things a lot more heightened... but at that moment it was obvious i was in no state to be supportive.. i then got called a selfish b*tch for not helping them
in which was not helpful to my state of mind which they knew was going on through posts in open chat... I was in hospital for a little while and feared coming home to any of the pms i had on here when i logged back in again.. many times i thought i should have ignored my own life and concentrated saving someone who deserved it more...that they were right in me being a selfish b*tch for actually even wanting to save my life.. it still runs through my head now! But i know now if i tried to help they'd have just ignored it anyway. (They are still alive.. i know you think by now i would stop believing they'd act but from behind a computer screen i cant tell whether they're telling the truth or not) If id been in a place to do so i would have saved chat log but for one... i was in an internet cafe and another... i was obviously in no ability to do so. I'd come out of a dissociated state in a mess and was very much frightened... It was obvious i couldnt help but they still did so?
I know other members have got such things/ treatment. This is more aimed at that sort of thing mentioned above.. not the every once and again a member comes in desperate.. I will do everything in my power to help them at those times.. but with the consistant badgering and then foul treatment for not helping.. I havent recieved such treatment in a while now after following some of the advice on this thread (thanks by the way) but i know some people may still be recieving this treatment.
By the way my comment isnt aimed specifically at your comment it was just the only one i could think of a way to start the quick response.