I'm happy to have this thread here - I was thinking of making one myself, but I didn't want to upset anyone... Yeah. I've been feeling lonely a lot recently.
Until I was half way through Year 11, I honestly thought my anxiety was normal. I was just convinced that everyone felt the same, but you didn't talk about it. Honestly. I was reffered to do CBT before sixth form. Then back to councelling. Then on medication. Then back to CBT. And then god knows what will happen next.
It's the little things you have to fight against every day. My councellor says I should be really happy with how I'm functioning for my levels of anxiety - socially, acadmically. He says I shouldn't focus on how walking to the bus stop every day is a bloody battle - he says I should be happy I'm still in school. I know he's right, but I'm fed up of fighting. I'm fed up of not giving up. Because I've walked on those streets for the last 17 years, and my heart still stops when I pass someone on the street.
Good Days and Bad Days. Just now, more and more bad days. I don't know why. Maybe it's just when you have to start admitting to yourself things aren't as 'fine' as you've been convincing yourself they are.
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