Hey romferfry, thanks for caring. I don't really need a reply, i'm more using this space to get my thoughts together.
Tokoloshe, i definately agree with your view. My SH isn't life threatening either it's more cosmetically irritating! I've been thinking about this trust issue, i like to think i'm quite a confident person but i think that is only the case when i'm in control. So i think i have major trust issues. I don't feel i have social anxiety in the straight-forward sense because i can do social situations well but i become very anxious about getting close to people. So i think i function very well on a shallow social basis, but i never form any true intimate friendships anymore. Hence i feel disconnected. I think i live with the feeling that friendships come and go so there is no point ever getting to know someone properly because they're not going to be around forever. I do see a therapist, she is very good but it is only for 50mins a week and so there isn't much i can fit in.