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bleedingdragon · 29-11-2009, 05:50 PM

Hi Nathan,
I hope you can hang in there mate , its good that your able to post in RYL and express yourself . Things sound really tuff for you right now , hoplessness is something i understand too , i struggle with it alot. I hear you about being so sick of it living with the belief that things are never going to change it can eat away at us inside. I cant predict the future i dont have all the answers just know that others do understand what your experiencing and that they care ,i care about you mate .

I also know what you mean about feeling like youve achieved nothing and that you never will, its soul destroying to have built a life for ourselves and achieved things only to have them destroyed all around us. I struggle too mate i had a wife, a future, a house, a job, and a purpose, right now i have very little and its a struggle .

My world also came crashing down around me i lost everything that made me who i was and im 44 . Starting again is vey hard at any time in our lives , for me nathan its even harder at my time of life. I guess all we can do mate as hard as that is is to take one day at a time.

I hear you about it being nearly 2 years since you last worked i know how having a job gives us a purpose, i was in my last job for 20 years then i was bullied and had to leave my job on Ill Health i know how devastating it can be i havent worked for 3 years now nathan i struggle to believe that i will ever work again i hope i can. I hope and pray that you can find the strength to keep moving forward and get your life back again you deserve a future and to be happy.

I know right now that being 5 months self harm free doesnt mean much to you in time it will its still a very good achievement, i wish i could get to 5 months self harm free , knowing that you can achieve it gives me some hope i can do that too.

I also know only to well any steps forward we make even the tiniest ones feel like were only moving 1 foot forward on a 10 thousand foot high mountain . Any journey mate is achieved by us taking one step at a time.
We all still fall mate everyone does but i guess for us it hits us harder than everyone else when weve lost so much before. all we can do mate it try to learn everytime we fall to help us the next time. Why some of us continue to fall , and constantly struggle is a question i still ask myself a hell of a lot .

I too wish that every night i go to sleep i wish id never wake up its a horrible feeling , just know that i understand you and that i care about you and i wish that you can find peace and some happiness .

Dave

29-11-2009, 05:50 PM	#2
bleedingdragon Lost in the Darkness searching for the Light Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: back in the World alive I am currently:	Hi Nathan, I hope you can hang in there mate , its good that your able to post in RYL and express yourself . Things sound really tuff for you right now , hoplessness is something i understand too , i struggle with it alot. I hear you about being so sick of it living with the belief that things are never going to change it can eat away at us inside. I cant predict the future i dont have all the answers just know that others do understand what your experiencing and that they care ,i care about you mate . I also know what you mean about feeling like youve achieved nothing and that you never will, its soul destroying to have built a life for ourselves and achieved things only to have them destroyed all around us. I struggle too mate i had a wife, a future, a house, a job, and a purpose, right now i have very little and its a struggle . My world also came crashing down around me i lost everything that made me who i was and im 44 . Starting again is vey hard at any time in our lives , for me nathan its even harder at my time of life. I guess all we can do mate as hard as that is is to take one day at a time. I hear you about it being nearly 2 years since you last worked i know how having a job gives us a purpose, i was in my last job for 20 years then i was bullied and had to leave my job on Ill Health i know how devastating it can be i havent worked for 3 years now nathan i struggle to believe that i will ever work again i hope i can. I hope and pray that you can find the strength to keep moving forward and get your life back again you deserve a future and to be happy. I know right now that being 5 months self harm free doesnt mean much to you in time it will its still a very good achievement, i wish i could get to 5 months self harm free , knowing that you can achieve it gives me some hope i can do that too. I also know only to well any steps forward we make even the tiniest ones feel like were only moving 1 foot forward on a 10 thousand foot high mountain . Any journey mate is achieved by us taking one step at a time. We all still fall mate everyone does but i guess for us it hits us harder than everyone else when weve lost so much before. all we can do mate it try to learn everytime we fall to help us the next time. Why some of us continue to fall , and constantly struggle is a question i still ask myself a hell of a lot . I too wish that every night i go to sleep i wish id never wake up its a horrible feeling , just know that i understand you and that i care about you and i wish that you can find peace and some happiness . Dave
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