What does your therapist say? If thats okay to ask. When I got paranoid about my friends being involved in the research, i was told it was me trying to get away from having to spend time with them and that it was a defense mechanism. I don't understand about the research though, because I've been given so many clues and its with me everyday, I thought once that maybe I was using it to defend myself like when I know got paranoid about seeing friends, but having this go on is causing me so much pain and stopping me from living. So it can't be a defense mechanism. I just want it all to stop, but feel deep down inside that it never will until evnetually the World is taken over and I am proven right.
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