often i have these evenings when i just like to sit in my room and think about my life, i cant imagine it going anywhere if iam honest. i cant see myself in 5 years time 20 with a nice girl and a flat somewhere... ive never trusted anyone in my life everyone i know has betrayed me in someway or another. say my dog, ive never actually selfharmed myself never cut or anything just tried to end it all. iam calmer now but how to i find more friends, its the middle of summer and ive got new college next year. much easier to die honouralby than to take **** at college
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