*cuddles* I'm sorry you're struggling at the moment.
I have been in a VERY similar situation to this - my then partner was more concerend with going out and seeing his mates than he was with taking care of his son.
Needless to say the relationship quickly deterioated. Not that this is the case for every couple in this situation but now is the time to be realistic.
When something makes you miserable change it.
It sounds to me like your partner is ****-scared of the sudden responsibility. Men, it seems, don't get into parent mode as quickly as women do, pressumably because they don't have the bonding hormones we do. Again, not always the case for everyone but I think most men struggle. Some don't deal with it in a very good way!
Your best bet right now is to tell him exactly what you expect of him and then have him tell you whether it's fair or not. You both have a chance to talk about what you expect of each other and he might see that he is being unreasonable and at the same time you might appreciate WHY he is going to the pub all the time.
Ultimately though, if you can't trust him and if he can't pull his finger out then that's no good for anyone. A child does not need a father who is out all hours. A child does not need a mother who is miserable and trapped.
If you feel that moving away would make you happier then I think it's time to start looking into it. I hope for you and your daughter that your partner turns himself around a little bit before then.
*hugs* Good luck with everything. I know it's hard to refrain from old habits but try your best. Have you talked to your midwife about this? Obviously you don't want this to develop into post-natal depression. A midwife or doctor might have some ideas that could help you or could at least pay close attention to make sure you don't slip.
If you ever want to talk about any of this, feel free to PM me xxxxxxxx
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