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Originally Posted by Alone and Scared

Part of me thinks that when you join a forum like this, this is something that you are going to have to face. There are people on here with severe mental health problems, and at times, there are going to be people who are desperately suicidal. You join a forum like this taking into account that people are vulnerable and struggling.

It comes with the territory!!!!!

I completely agree and its something i take into consideration all the time and i mean i've been guilty of it myself even though i tried not to i was alone so i can empathise with people in the situation but then again i think its a two way street as the person joining is also in pain/ill themselves but what im actually talking about is that every single conversation i have is pretty much them threatening suicide or have already acted but will refuse to get help and then im badgered consistantly being reminded of it. If i leave chat im pm'ed. I have rang the police once which terrified the heck out of me and then the member hated me and i got a load of abuse for saving their life. A lot of problems is my own personal issue as i've been blamed for three suicides and have grieved a further two in the past year and i cant bear the idea of having another persons life in my hands it drives me to distraction and makes me very triggered i know they're not to bear that but its something i find very difficult because i dont want to lose anyone else so i do everything in my being to stop it from happening and in the end i fail. I go into chat days on end hoping they'd return and eventually they do claiming they got help but then it starts all over again. I get quite a few at a time sometimes its sort of expected of me.. im not allowed to need support sort of. Im sorry for causing all this trouble at the moment i've had a drastic change and am going through alot myself having not recently wound up in hospital myself... i've got a lot on my back and pain is included in that so its made me more vulnerable and hard to deal with it. Its just my problem is people dont want to know when im struggling im only allowed to support and accept that *shrugs* its how it is but i didnt want to cause arguments or any problems i just wanted to know what to do as i cant hack much more of it its putting me off coming online when this place used to be somewhere i felt accepted so much it just upsets me i suppose. I know it wont stop but its the fact that its repetitive and they will only talk me i dont like facing it alone. I dont know I'll sort it out, sorry for everything