I do remember my first time.
But from past storiies some people can, no even knowingly blak things out.
When 9/11 happened, there was a story of one man running from the wreckage, and he remembers vividly seeing a pile of dead cows mooing. But after looking back, reflecting etc. he reliesed it was really human bodies piled after the impact and his mind mad him see something else because it was so horrific.
I've self harmed for years from hitting myself or other thing to cutting. But in a sense i am a 'lucky' one. i still have some horrible scars the worst being my recent phase, but the ones from a few years ago have faded. it takes time but i seem to heal. But the very first time i harmed i still have that scar which could be why I have never forgot.
Sometimes though you shouldn't look back and think when or why but the future to stop :) x
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