The doctor was concerned and I have another appointment soon, I'm almost definately going to get counselling but I declined anti-depressants.
The last few weeks I've gone completely tee total, been down the gym daily, not lifting huge weights or anything just mild but challenging workouts, long walks, etc, all the cliches, and i'm feeling pretty damn good.
I've trimmed down a little, I think i'm starting to tan a little but that might just be freckles :P and those crazy symptoms have subsided a lot. Reading up on a lot of material my mood swings were definately a side effect of my massive e use and dysfunctional serotonin levels and i've decided it's not a good idea to play with my brain so much anymore.
The worst of the depression only lasted maybe 10-12 days but it was so horrible i never want to experience that sense of emptiness again. My friends were really supportive, even though I deliberately dodged calls they persisted in contacting me and i'm glad they did, even listening to a cheesy rock CD and having a BBQ made me feel so much better than sitting in my room alone.
I'm glad to hear you've been sober so long, I can't identify with what you went though but you have my admiration for being strong enough to conquer the habit.
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